
[ that's my scribble. dunt steal it. ]
What I mean is the speed of dark is as interesting as the speed of light, and maybe it is faster and who will find out?
What I mean is about gravity, if there were a world where it is twice as strong, then on that world would the wind from a fan be stronger because the air is thicker and blow my glass off the table, not just my napkin? Or would the greater gravity hold the glass more firmly to the table, so the stronger wind couldn't move it?
My wallet disappeared around Thanksgiving, and I had lost more than sixty dollars worth of items. Now my metrocard and student ID disappear and my iPod nano as well. The same metrocard that I just got from the office, and my seventh grade ID because they wouldn't give me another. Therefore I'll always be missing my seventh and eighth grade student IDs, and I'll never get back my first iPod and New Year's gift from my Dad. And that is the magnificance of the world through my eyes.
I'm a walking disaster. Nothing left to hold. When everything crashes, I'll crash too.
This is so depressing, because a lot of the stuff had sentimental value. My ID and metrocard case was something my Mom gave me, and in the wallet I lost three weeks ago was a gift card I never touched. I don't even know whether they were stolen, or I dropped them. Even if I did, the founder had my full name so they could've done something. Except that is not what happened, and I've lost complete faith of everything.
You could speak only the truth forever and I'll never believe you.
I really don't care about the wallet anymore. I've decided that everything that matters most to me don't really matter. If you really just live for nothing, then you won't lose anything. I think that's wonderful.
Edit; This is completely unrelated, but today I had a sick numbing feeling between my legs. Then when I went to the bathroom my panties were completely red, it was the sickest thing I ever saw. Please note that the last time I had my period was almost three months ago, and I didn't have as much blood nor did I feel that creeping numbing sensation. Either way, I was completely freaked out by it...